Incovarians

Incovarians, what does this title means??
more responsibilities, more inspiration, more excitement or more of others?

Incovarians have much more qualities , which is hard to be explained by words.
Incovar is a camp not only inspire people but teaching lay people like us to be a better person, giving out more helps to others.
Yesterday, in ajahn chah remembrance day, I can see a lot of familiar faces from incovar. Perhaps, they dun remember your name; perhaps they dunno which incovar u have been to, but they will always know that u are once an incovarian.

It makes me feel more at home. Sense of belonging to a place where everyone will have good will, good deed, good intention to you. And yes, this is a place call--incovar.

Sometimes i will think that, isin't it strange. There is always some sort of chemical reactions within incovarians. Spending only 4 days with each other in the camp, and can turned out to be very close friends that able to share voices of your heart to each other.

Under that atmosphere, with merits and love that spread out by others, even secret that never being revealed will be split out on that particular night, when we were blinded folded, making vows in heart that everything will kept within the four walls, we shared secrets with tears and hugs.

Life will not be so fun, if i never been to incovar.
I've gained much more than i have ever expected.

Ajahn Chah remembrance Day

16.01.2010

Ajahn Remembrance Day
Din expect much when first visit to this event.
Reached there early in the morning 6 sth, started the day off with ushering.
I always love ushering..
Putting up the greatest smiles to others, greeting a very good morning to all the guest present, and in return, you will get lots of smiles and greetings as well.

The morning started of with Dhamma talks and it ends off with more Dhamma talks.
Is a day we attained not only knowledges but also more merits for us and for our family.

There's a lot of dhamma I learned, but not all that i can digest and understand.
There is one ajahn, mentioned something about ajahn chah.
He said ajahn chaH always do things based on examples, in the morning, sometimes, sangha on duty dun even have chance to ring the bells, because ajahn chan will rang it before anyone woke up; you thought u will be the first one in the shine hall, ajahn chah will always be there, no matter how early you were;

Ajahn chah always set himself as an example.
And this is what a leader should have. Fierce when u need to, be good to everyone, be a teacher to everyone, sharing out merits and love without asking anything in return.

Mind controls our body. We have our own choice to choose whether we wan to be happy or not. Why do we have to suffer with all those negative feelings?
Yes , it did inspire me.
However, inspire not enough to make me able to apply it in my daily life.

I still will get disturb by negative feelings.
The time to get rid of all these...will be a time to infinity.

Brand new Hui shan..

First blog in year 2010..and this reminds me is time to set up my new year resolutions and works toward it. Is time to forget the past..and move forward..searching for a better and also brighter future.

Yes..last year 2009..was a year with lots of ups and downs, loops and bounds..
yes..first half of the year was great, everything seems to be in control, i have funs, i enjoyed my studies, my life...but things changed..second half of the year, everything hacked me without noticing me earlier. Things seems to be pouring down, i've got out of control in my life. Tears rolling down, i wet my pillows for countless night, i stared upon the star and make my wishes..but none of it comes true..may be i wasn't hardworking enough, may be i wasn't sincere enough.

I always thought that i was a good girl, i never do harm to anyone.. i always wanted to serve best to others, despite my own good. But bad things still come to me..testing my determination and toughness, testing me on how to survive in rough wave in the ocean. I almost drown. I admit. It was so tough to get back up. To back on track.

This year, once again i wishes upon the star. Crossing my fingers, in front of my heart, i sincerely pray that my new year resolutions will come true.

This year, i hope that it will be a good year, not only for me but for all of us.

My new year resolution:
1. Get back in control in my studies
2. Enjoy my uni life
3. Expand my social life
4. Sincere smile
5. Do more good to others
6. Keep fit..

Yes..
2010, a brand new year, may all the dark clouds left me.. left me far far away please..
i need more sunshine..
I need a good good year..

Happy new year..