this is what it is.

well well well, i've been very emo for like past two weeks but this few days it becomes better. just out of sudden i start to find back my happiness. The source of happiness.

Recently, there is a lot of issues coming up that trigger out all the 'emo-ing' moment that i have. My frens start to hv their own new relationship and i will suddenly feel that i'm a alone and being left out. Honestly, i do feel jealous and envy. Envy and jealous over what other people have .... thinking of how come their life can be so prefect.... how come they will always get what they want...

N then this few days, i read a lot... books and articles from newspaper. There is a lot that telling us the world outside is so big. There is so much thgs waiting for us to encounter.... for us to explore. There is no need for us to jealous or envy over something we dun hv...because every single one of us is special. There is a special destiny designed for everyone of us. So...jus be patient and wait.....there is something for u...for everyone for us...

But..as a lay person as me...how can i get rid of all those feelings?? jealousy, envy, anger, hatred.......but i trying hard..trying to be more thankful and appreciate what i have now..for this moment.