love........

what is love....today spend whole day trying hard to put all those management notes into my head...and haha u know when u studying something that u r not really interested, ur mind will start to swing to nowhere. And i start to think of love...boy and girl type of love. there's always never been easy to get the correct man for urself, someone who can fulfill all the so-called ' prefect requirement' on my list...what's the requirement..haha i dun really know...but there's one top most one is that i must feel secure and being protected beside him. ET always said that when there's the right time, at the right place, the right guy will just drop down infront of u... haha i doubt that how high is the probability of this will happen... well thou this thoughts just come in when i feel so depress facing all those stupid notes, pbl and upcoming psd and also assignment that seems to be will take u forever to do it... but when this thought comes in i will just like figuring out hmmm what will happen to do in the next 5 years....
being single still sometimes will be good at least there's no burden and less worries, quarrels and heart break. I've seen too much tears from other couples. however, this doesn't means that i dun trust on relationship.. i still looking forward for it... just let time be and may be really like what ET said....one day the right man will just pop up...

but...when will it be that day???

nothing is good.

is not a good day for me here. Is a day that makes me feel so depress and make me like a loser in everything...no matter whatever i do... what's wrong? haha i dunno is just not my day...

I dunno what happen to me today... is just like so depressing here...i spend whole night 'anasthesing' myself by watching non stop movie marathon. ya i know the exam is coming but i dunno i just feel that i'm so lost ... helpless and alone.....who am i? what's my purpose of life? what do i want and what am i aiming for? i'm totally lost.

i don't like this feeling when i'm like so so so alone and moody and...argh...i dunno how to describe how i feel now...i just feel like i need to get to a place with nice beach, blue sea, blue sky, bright and warm sunshine.......

I lost my happiness today.

me....

i'm never a blogger because i not that type that will stick on to something forever...i easily get distracted and will try out new things every now and then....so is just like writing diary the first few weeks, full with enthutiastic and passion...but as times flies....my passion flies too.....this is why i hardly try out in blogging. But then there is sometimes in a day when u feel so so so likely to jot down ur feelings, and there's no way to go... when u feel like u have something to say but not to anyone...u just feel like u wan to voice out something... then blog is a way i can express i guess... tat's y i named it soul searching...i dunno how long will i write this may be for a few days, few months or forever..may be one day when i'm old... i read back what i wrote in my 20's... ehem..then i will sigh and said ' i used to be young' ... haha but all these will only be true if i start to jot down all the moment that i like to cherish...every moment that i would like to share with others.

so here i am.... first step into the blogger zone.