今天的报纸，报道了一篇伤人心的文章。
新潮青年因抵不了与女友分手之伤痛，想不开而轻生了。
他忘了，身边爱他的人还有多少，为他流泪的人还有多少。
因为一时的钻牛角尖，生命不再有明天。
生命难道就这么不值得珍惜吗？
在医院里上班了两个星期，看见了无数的病人，在我眼前呼出了最后的一口气。
许多病恹恹的公公婆婆，仍努力地与死神奋斗；
他们努力的吃药，努力的复建，听着医生的吩咐，坚强的活着。
他们如此努力的活下去，为了要好起来，为了不让身边的人担心，为了有一天能回家去与家人共享天伦之乐。
他们的坚强令人动容；
但坚强，却抵不了死神的魔力；
许多病人，就这样带着不舍·遗憾·黯然地撒手离开。
我害怕看到那一刻，害怕他们被盖上白布，放上铁床的那一刻。
原来，人在停止呼吸的那一刻，连睡在软绵绵的床的资格，都一併消失了。
那天，我看见一个印裔男被盖上了白布；身边站着他的太太。
太太脸上没有泪，没有哀伤，没有不舍，没有愕然；
只有放空，那种放空的表情也令人哀伤；
那像是一种哀莫大于心死的表情，令人感叹生命的脆弱。
还有许多人，身上插满了管子，但他们仍努力的呼吸着；
努力的期望有一天，他们可以健健康康地，用双脚走着离开医院。。。
那是一种期望，希望。
这些希望是他们尽管忍受许多的痛苦，也咬着牙熬下去的动力。
看到他们那么的不懈，我好想为他们加油，好想为他们鼓掌，
但往往我能做的就是那么的一丁点。
为什么有些人却那么藐视上天赐给他们健康的身躯呢？
也许，他有着不为人知的秘密，不为人知的苦。
但，在把生命结束前的一秒钟，想一想有多少人，在咬牙切齿地祈求上天赐予他们活下去的机会。
生命珍贵得无以伦比。
心脏可以继续地跳动，肺部可以继续地呼吸；
是一种福气。
有福气的人不因该滥用这种权利。
我们应该珍惜，珍惜血液仍在体内流动的每一秒。
保护生命，爱护生命。
爱自己，爱别人。
Friday, December 10, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
姐妹情深
欢庆雯雯归国，我们简单及隆重地与一堆草莓一同庆祝了。
谈天重来就是我们姐妹帮最爱做的事。
当然随着岁月，姐妹帮里多了些‘兄弟’。。。
ｖｖ的老公，欣欣的男友（虽然他甚少出现）
述说天南地北，说着雯在印度的奇遇。
‘我们白种人像动物园里的动物一样被人欣赏。。"
“那儿什么饮料都加奶，甜得不得了。”
还说了好多好多。。。
有朋友在身边真好。。。
品尝着可口的草莓。。。
述说着深深的姐妹情。。。
今晚的夜，连星星都笑了～～～
谈天重来就是我们姐妹帮最爱做的事。
当然随着岁月，姐妹帮里多了些‘兄弟’。。。
ｖｖ的老公，欣欣的男友（虽然他甚少出现）
述说天南地北，说着雯在印度的奇遇。
‘我们白种人像动物园里的动物一样被人欣赏。。"
“那儿什么饮料都加奶，甜得不得了。”
还说了好多好多。。。
有朋友在身边真好。。。
品尝着可口的草莓。。。
述说着深深的姐妹情。。。
今晚的夜，连星星都笑了～～～
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Gracious Goodbye...
Been googling on what were those best words for retirement.
What does retirement means?
Old age? The end of a workaholic? or starting of another phase of life?
Personally? I preferred to believe that is time to spend all the money I have, wisely, and do something that i always wanted to, while i still can.
It was not a very good day with the sudden black out in IMU.
Things became slightly out of control, and the organizer started to freak out on whether the long planned event can be carried out smoothly....and then ... God just heard our prayers when He need to ~
Lights ON, air cond ON....
It was a long awaited day for Dr Mak.
Spending more than half of his life in education field, he honouredly retired at age of 70.
It was a day with lotsa wishes, presents and happiness.
Guests walked in with smile...
Dr Mak walked in with smile too ~
The event started off with a short video clip and brief opening by our Miss Mcee..
Followed by Prof PP's gratitude to Dr Mak and also a humour speech by Prof Ong Kok Hai..
Then, Dr Mak took the Mic..
It was hard for him to be on stage facing all of his old mates, old buddies, and had to farewell them, with smile but not tears....I knew he tried to hold back his tears.
"This morning, there's a sudden black out in IMU, then i thought that maybe IMU dun wan me to leave...but then suddenly the light on back...then i think ...may be is really time for me to leave...I spent 14 years working in IMU, there's a lot of memories in every corner ...i remembered those days we celebrated CNY together, having lunch together, and back to those days where IMU is no where like what we have now. There's only 3 staffs for pharmacy faculty, and the open concept office is real OPEN as in there's only table and chair...not even cubicles. People that walked in will thought that I'm jus PA for someone. And then slowly, we grew together... more staffs, more course.. I would like to thank IMU for giving me a chance to take up a lots of high post in IMU...and also thanks to all my colleague for working with me so long and giving me a lot of supports and helps along the way..I know speech should be like mini skirt...the shortest the best...." (laughs and applause from the floor) " I would like to thank everyone for giving me this small yet warm farewell...at first i thought wanted to leave quietly but IMU insisted for this farewell...and yes.. I appreciate it a lot. Thank you especially to Mai Chun Wai for organizing this. Left one old mak , we have a new mak in imu (same chinese surname). Hopefully this young Mak can contribute to IMU too...Thank you everyone..." speech ended with not only applause but also lotsa gratitude , thankfulness and heavy heart.
We clapped not because how good his speech was, but how much had he sacrifice for students, staffs, colleague and IMU.
He worked quietly behind ....without noticing anyone...without hoping for anything in return. Yes, he might not recognise his student well, but we will never forget how he left his footprint in our life.
I was sitting far back from the stage, seeing this old man, standing on the stage, with his hair all white, some wrinkles here and there over his face, yet still energetic. Every strand of white hair and wrinkles symbolised his path for his past 70 years. Yes, we might not be all of his life, but we definately marked a pit stop...a colorful pit stop on his life.
I try to recall all his good and bad.... and all I can remember was how funny he used to be while he was giving lecture, how responsible he can be when it comes to tutoring...and to my own surprises...i remember only his GOOD....
Our gratitude to Dr Mak can never be replaced by only presents, or slides, or speeches...
But we sincerely wishes him all GOOD....
healthy, happy, cheerful , relax....
Life doesn;t end with separation nor farewell but it brings hope for another reunion....
Before i left...I saw Dr Mak was happily smiling...and having photographing sessions with his students, with his friends....Deep inside I know is heavy hearted for him to say goodbye....but he replaced tears with smiles...waving with hugging....
Yes, we too...will farewell you with Smile..
Goodbye ~
What does retirement means?
Old age? The end of a workaholic? or starting of another phase of life?
Personally? I preferred to believe that is time to spend all the money I have, wisely, and do something that i always wanted to, while i still can.
It was not a very good day with the sudden black out in IMU.
Things became slightly out of control, and the organizer started to freak out on whether the long planned event can be carried out smoothly....and then ... God just heard our prayers when He need to ~
Lights ON, air cond ON....
It was a long awaited day for Dr Mak.
Spending more than half of his life in education field, he honouredly retired at age of 70.
It was a day with lotsa wishes, presents and happiness.
Guests walked in with smile...
Dr Mak walked in with smile too ~
The event started off with a short video clip and brief opening by our Miss Mcee..
Followed by Prof PP's gratitude to Dr Mak and also a humour speech by Prof Ong Kok Hai..
Then, Dr Mak took the Mic..
It was hard for him to be on stage facing all of his old mates, old buddies, and had to farewell them, with smile but not tears....I knew he tried to hold back his tears.
"This morning, there's a sudden black out in IMU, then i thought that maybe IMU dun wan me to leave...but then suddenly the light on back...then i think ...may be is really time for me to leave...I spent 14 years working in IMU, there's a lot of memories in every corner ...i remembered those days we celebrated CNY together, having lunch together, and back to those days where IMU is no where like what we have now. There's only 3 staffs for pharmacy faculty, and the open concept office is real OPEN as in there's only table and chair...not even cubicles. People that walked in will thought that I'm jus PA for someone. And then slowly, we grew together... more staffs, more course.. I would like to thank IMU for giving me a chance to take up a lots of high post in IMU...and also thanks to all my colleague for working with me so long and giving me a lot of supports and helps along the way..I know speech should be like mini skirt...the shortest the best...." (laughs and applause from the floor) " I would like to thank everyone for giving me this small yet warm farewell...at first i thought wanted to leave quietly but IMU insisted for this farewell...and yes.. I appreciate it a lot. Thank you especially to Mai Chun Wai for organizing this. Left one old mak , we have a new mak in imu (same chinese surname). Hopefully this young Mak can contribute to IMU too...Thank you everyone..." speech ended with not only applause but also lotsa gratitude , thankfulness and heavy heart.
We clapped not because how good his speech was, but how much had he sacrifice for students, staffs, colleague and IMU.
He worked quietly behind ....without noticing anyone...without hoping for anything in return. Yes, he might not recognise his student well, but we will never forget how he left his footprint in our life.
I was sitting far back from the stage, seeing this old man, standing on the stage, with his hair all white, some wrinkles here and there over his face, yet still energetic. Every strand of white hair and wrinkles symbolised his path for his past 70 years. Yes, we might not be all of his life, but we definately marked a pit stop...a colorful pit stop on his life.
I try to recall all his good and bad.... and all I can remember was how funny he used to be while he was giving lecture, how responsible he can be when it comes to tutoring...and to my own surprises...i remember only his GOOD....
Our gratitude to Dr Mak can never be replaced by only presents, or slides, or speeches...
But we sincerely wishes him all GOOD....
healthy, happy, cheerful , relax....
Life doesn;t end with separation nor farewell but it brings hope for another reunion....
Before i left...I saw Dr Mak was happily smiling...and having photographing sessions with his students, with his friends....Deep inside I know is heavy hearted for him to say goodbye....but he replaced tears with smiles...waving with hugging....
Yes, we too...will farewell you with Smile..
Goodbye ~
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
笔墨情
假期最开心的事，莫过于重拾会我的爱好，阅读。
通常只限于华语刊物，上至散文小说，下至报纸副刊；
偏爱于感动人心之刊物。
喜欢读者能以篇子只语，就能感动人心。
心随着作者笔下人物而起伏；
随着主角不幸的遭遇而落泪；
随着幸福快乐的结局而欢欣；
可以为了看小说而无眠；
最爱的，就是看着我爱的书，喝着我爱的咖啡。
曾想过，可有那么的一天，我也能令众生，倾倒于我笔墨下？
但，语法，仍欠那没一点；
思路也欠那没一点；
创意，也欠那么一点；
综合那么多的一点，嘻嘻。。。
看来前往以一支笔来赚钱的生涯还真是欠那么的一点。。。
有一段时间，没在看小说了；
因为，一栽头看，总是无法自拔；
最近，仍在忙课业，‘无法自拔’的事不能作，
因它会让我有罪恶感。
所以，爱上了副刊。
名人名句，令人启蒙不少。
张柏芝说：“人呢，遇到不好的事，不要觉得自己很惨，应该感谢，感恩；因为是上天对你的安排，当你坦然走过，走回高出，蓦然回首，那个过程更加值得欣喜。”
她，说得动听。
李商隐曾写 ： “ 锦謐无端五十妶，一弦一柱思华年。
庄生晓梦迷蝴蝶，望帝春心托杜鹃。
沧海月明珠有泪，蓝田日暖玉生烟。
此情可待成追忆，只是当时已惘然。”
人生如曾有过那么镶嵌于心中的感情，还有遗憾吗？
多读多听多写，说不定真的有那么的一天；
我，也能以笔墨，以敲键盘，感动人心，脍炙人口。
通常只限于华语刊物，上至散文小说，下至报纸副刊；
偏爱于感动人心之刊物。
喜欢读者能以篇子只语，就能感动人心。
心随着作者笔下人物而起伏；
随着主角不幸的遭遇而落泪；
随着幸福快乐的结局而欢欣；
可以为了看小说而无眠；
最爱的，就是看着我爱的书，喝着我爱的咖啡。
曾想过，可有那么的一天，我也能令众生，倾倒于我笔墨下？
但，语法，仍欠那没一点；
思路也欠那没一点；
创意，也欠那么一点；
综合那么多的一点，嘻嘻。。。
看来前往以一支笔来赚钱的生涯还真是欠那么的一点。。。
有一段时间，没在看小说了；
因为，一栽头看，总是无法自拔；
最近，仍在忙课业，‘无法自拔’的事不能作，
因它会让我有罪恶感。
所以，爱上了副刊。
名人名句，令人启蒙不少。
张柏芝说：“人呢，遇到不好的事，不要觉得自己很惨，应该感谢，感恩；因为是上天对你的安排，当你坦然走过，走回高出，蓦然回首，那个过程更加值得欣喜。”
她，说得动听。
李商隐曾写 ： “ 锦謐无端五十妶，一弦一柱思华年。
庄生晓梦迷蝴蝶，望帝春心托杜鹃。
沧海月明珠有泪，蓝田日暖玉生烟。
此情可待成追忆，只是当时已惘然。”
人生如曾有过那么镶嵌于心中的感情，还有遗憾吗？
多读多听多写，说不定真的有那么的一天；
我，也能以笔墨，以敲键盘，感动人心，脍炙人口。
是恶魔？还是天使？
喜欢当天使还是魔鬼？
曾经，我是一个天使，乖巧得无人能敌；
从不要求买玩具；母亲要我做的，一定做足。
从来不会所不，任何人的要求，都一定全力以赴；
从不在放学后偷溜出去玩；
从不没有礼貌；
品行永远甲等；
功课永远前三；
那时的我，温柔得像天使。
随着年龄的增长，开始与社会接触。
复杂的社会，容不下善良的天使。
人善被人欺，这句话不无道理；
你不欺人，并不代表别人不会在你头上动土。
再不食人间烟火的天使，也被迫从容，妥协了。
有时候，环境迫使我们长大。
险恶让人不得没有提防心；
外头的世界到处危机重重；心怀不轨的人到处都是；
打劫，强奸，殴打事件天天上演；
天使已经没有办法露出灿烂的笑容；
天使已经历经沧桑，无以招架快速转变的社会。
天使开始披上了恶魔的衣裳。
雪白的翅膀，染上了灰色的尘埃；
甜美的笑容多了一份虚假；
单纯的心多了提防的枷锁；
天使当上了虚有外表的恶魔。
恶魔只在必不得以的时候才会出现；
在所爱的人面前，天使依旧是天使；
哪怕翅膀不再白；笑容不再甜；
心，永远，保留着那么一片纯真。
武装成恶魔的天使，
仍是天使。
曾经，我是一个天使，乖巧得无人能敌；
从不要求买玩具；母亲要我做的，一定做足。
从来不会所不，任何人的要求，都一定全力以赴；
从不在放学后偷溜出去玩；
从不没有礼貌；
品行永远甲等；
功课永远前三；
那时的我，温柔得像天使。
随着年龄的增长，开始与社会接触。
复杂的社会，容不下善良的天使。
人善被人欺，这句话不无道理；
你不欺人，并不代表别人不会在你头上动土。
再不食人间烟火的天使，也被迫从容，妥协了。
有时候，环境迫使我们长大。
险恶让人不得没有提防心；
外头的世界到处危机重重；心怀不轨的人到处都是；
打劫，强奸，殴打事件天天上演；
天使已经没有办法露出灿烂的笑容；
天使已经历经沧桑，无以招架快速转变的社会。
天使开始披上了恶魔的衣裳。
雪白的翅膀，染上了灰色的尘埃；
甜美的笑容多了一份虚假；
单纯的心多了提防的枷锁；
天使当上了虚有外表的恶魔。
恶魔只在必不得以的时候才会出现；
在所爱的人面前，天使依旧是天使；
哪怕翅膀不再白；笑容不再甜；
心，永远，保留着那么一片纯真。
武装成恶魔的天使，
仍是天使。
Sunday, November 7, 2010
《题都城南庄》
唐朝崔护，《题都城南庄》
去年今日此门户，
人面桃花相映红，
人面不知何处去，
桃花依旧笑春风。
曾几何时，我也在唐诗三百首。
桃花依旧笑春风，
春风，扑鼻芳香，令人迷恋。
身边的人，去去留留；
身边的物，变幻无穷；
只有思念，不曾停歇；
回忆，袮补了无眠的夜；
曾那么的一时，我们并肩作战；
无为你我，任性妄为；
呼吸着快乐的气息；
享受着忙碌的疲惫；
朵颐着垂綖的美食；
追逐着时尚的尖端；
回忆总是快乐的。
但，快乐不会停止；
因为亲爱的朋友们，
又回来了。
我开始见到了，那即将被填满的友谊，
笑声将把沉睡的心再次唤醒；
快乐将我沉溺于美梦，
桃花不只是在笑春风了；
我们即将在桃花路上，
再次的任意挥洒我们的青春！
期待我的周末～
去年今日此门户，
人面桃花相映红，
人面不知何处去，
桃花依旧笑春风。
曾几何时，我也在唐诗三百首。
桃花依旧笑春风，
春风，扑鼻芳香，令人迷恋。
身边的人，去去留留；
身边的物，变幻无穷；
只有思念，不曾停歇；
回忆，袮补了无眠的夜；
曾那么的一时，我们并肩作战；
无为你我，任性妄为；
呼吸着快乐的气息；
享受着忙碌的疲惫；
朵颐着垂綖的美食；
追逐着时尚的尖端；
回忆总是快乐的。
但，快乐不会停止；
因为亲爱的朋友们，
又回来了。
我开始见到了，那即将被填满的友谊，
笑声将把沉睡的心再次唤醒；
快乐将我沉溺于美梦，
桃花不只是在笑春风了；
我们即将在桃花路上，
再次的任意挥洒我们的青春！
期待我的周末～
女人理念
晃一晃，有一个月没写部落格了，并非没有灵感，只是太懒了。
颓废了大概两个星期，回到了我可爱的故乡。
怡保，山明水秀。。。。
喜爱星期日与家人窝在一起的感觉。
睡到日上三竿，跳过了早餐，偷了一口弟弟正在吃的油条，回到了儿时打架抢食物的情形。
很快到了中午，刚巧外婆与阿姨到访，便搭了趟姨丈的便车，一同去吃了午餐。
在车上，外婆，阿姨与妈妈七嘴八舌的谈论起谁的同事嫁了什么人；谁的儿子又娶了谁；
然后，阿姨开始语重心长地提醒我，要嫁，得找一个可靠的人嫁，嫁得不好不如不嫁。
突然，鲜少八卦的姨丈也加了一把嘴：“找个医生嫁了吧！”
妈呀，姨丈也太看得起我了吧！
嫁，谈何容易啊。
随着年龄的增长，无疑地，会开始担心嫁不出去的问题，但却只至于担心；
然后祈求上帝，赐我一个如意郎君。
嫁得不好，被别人说三道是；
嫁不出，也被别人指指点点；
人的这张嘴，这条舌，可真是杀人不见血。
哪个女人不期望一段美好姻缘；
哪个女人不奢望一个如意郎君；
哪个女人不渴求一场梦幻婚礼；
哪个女人不是在秉持着那么一点的信念，相信世界上的某个角落仲有那么一个‘他’，承载着满满的爱，打算无私地传递给你，用爱包容你，疼爱你。。。
因为有心，因为有信，也因为有爱，我们有了期待。
期待得到也许奢侈的幸福；
期待那妙不可言的爱。
愿有情人终成眷属，单身人找到归属，让我们一起美梦成真吧。
颓废了大概两个星期，回到了我可爱的故乡。
怡保，山明水秀。。。。
喜爱星期日与家人窝在一起的感觉。
睡到日上三竿，跳过了早餐，偷了一口弟弟正在吃的油条，回到了儿时打架抢食物的情形。
很快到了中午，刚巧外婆与阿姨到访，便搭了趟姨丈的便车，一同去吃了午餐。
在车上，外婆，阿姨与妈妈七嘴八舌的谈论起谁的同事嫁了什么人；谁的儿子又娶了谁；
然后，阿姨开始语重心长地提醒我，要嫁，得找一个可靠的人嫁，嫁得不好不如不嫁。
突然，鲜少八卦的姨丈也加了一把嘴：“找个医生嫁了吧！”
妈呀，姨丈也太看得起我了吧！
嫁，谈何容易啊。
随着年龄的增长，无疑地，会开始担心嫁不出去的问题，但却只至于担心；
然后祈求上帝，赐我一个如意郎君。
嫁得不好，被别人说三道是；
嫁不出，也被别人指指点点；
人的这张嘴，这条舌，可真是杀人不见血。
哪个女人不期望一段美好姻缘；
哪个女人不奢望一个如意郎君；
哪个女人不渴求一场梦幻婚礼；
哪个女人不是在秉持着那么一点的信念，相信世界上的某个角落仲有那么一个‘他’，承载着满满的爱，打算无私地传递给你，用爱包容你，疼爱你。。。
因为有心，因为有信，也因为有爱，我们有了期待。
期待得到也许奢侈的幸福；
期待那妙不可言的爱。
愿有情人终成眷属，单身人找到归属，让我们一起美梦成真吧。
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
夜。纸飞机。
从小， 就被爸爸训练得很属水性。喜欢在水里的感觉， 那无忧无虑的感觉。
从来在泳池里，我找到了我爱的宁静。也在泳池里，找到了无穷的自信。
最近，却有点厌倦了水里的蓝，冰冷的水，让我清醒，清醒得想要逃避。
所以，我爱上了蓝天的蓝，白云的白，徐风徐徐。。。
当然，我无法在天上飞；
但向往飞翔，飞向自由自在的未来。
曾经有人说过，要飞就去飞吧。
但人生，总是有很多其他的顾虑，而我又刚巧是那种常常想太多的人。
也许，我是那种缺乏勇气的人，也多少有点害怕面对失败。
也许，我常在想太多，想太多也许根本不可能发生的事。
害怕别人的冷言冷语，害怕别人的眼光；
就因为这样，许多时候都止步于， ‘我觉得’，‘我想’ 这种想法。
也因为害怕，心事从来都写满在自己的心里。
但，最近的我觉得我的心已无法再承受那许多的秘密与心事了。
结果，我爱上了纸飞机。
纸飞机承载着我的心事，飞到遥远的地方。
小小的纸飞机，无穷的力量。
令我释怀不少。
我与纸飞机的故事，才刚开始。
今晚的夜空，应该也会有一个纸飞机。。。。。。
承载着笑脸，与天边的星星，一同传递美丽的梦。
从来在泳池里，我找到了我爱的宁静。也在泳池里，找到了无穷的自信。
最近，却有点厌倦了水里的蓝，冰冷的水，让我清醒，清醒得想要逃避。
所以，我爱上了蓝天的蓝，白云的白，徐风徐徐。。。
当然，我无法在天上飞；
但向往飞翔，飞向自由自在的未来。
曾经有人说过，要飞就去飞吧。
但人生，总是有很多其他的顾虑，而我又刚巧是那种常常想太多的人。
也许，我是那种缺乏勇气的人，也多少有点害怕面对失败。
也许，我常在想太多，想太多也许根本不可能发生的事。
害怕别人的冷言冷语，害怕别人的眼光；
就因为这样，许多时候都止步于， ‘我觉得’，‘我想’ 这种想法。
也因为害怕，心事从来都写满在自己的心里。
但，最近的我觉得我的心已无法再承受那许多的秘密与心事了。
结果，我爱上了纸飞机。
纸飞机承载着我的心事，飞到遥远的地方。
小小的纸飞机，无穷的力量。
令我释怀不少。
我与纸飞机的故事，才刚开始。
今晚的夜空，应该也会有一个纸飞机。。。。。。
承载着笑脸，与天边的星星，一同传递美丽的梦。
Sunday, October 3, 2010
孤单。记忆。
讨厌孤单的滋味，它像一个无法抑制的恶性毒瘤不断的扩散蔓延，令你坐立不安，力不从心。
曾经，我的身边围绕着好多好多的好友，每天，在他们的笑声中快乐的分享着我们的开心与不开心；每天早上一同匆匆忙忙地赶往去上课；旁晚有时会相约跑步；有时会一同在厨房里，做晚餐；煲补汤。得空时，还会做些甜点，享受嘴里的甜直入心坎。
如今，朋友们各奔东西；大家忙着工作，赚钱，拼命地为自己的未来努力着。
有时，我会想，我也在努力着吗？还是，我仍停留在恍恍惚惚的那是？
行动上， 肢体上，我都在努力着；但心灵上呢？
何其奥妙。原来，我的心仍可停留在从前。
我记得好多好多的从前，好多好多的回忆。
回忆，在一个人寂寞的时候显得格外鲜明，格外令人无法忘怀。
记得我们的笑，我们的泪，我们一同分享的心事，一同面临过的所有。。。
我该向前。
向前面对我自己的未来，我自己迟来的一切。
曾经，我也拥有一股傲气，一股无法浇熄的勇气。
我正努力的燃烧起那微弱的勇气；
那努力迈向成功的自己。
记忆虽然模糊，但感觉永远真实。。。。
愿身边所有人，幸福快乐。
满天的星星，与我们一同迈向以后。。。。。。。。。
曾经，我的身边围绕着好多好多的好友，每天，在他们的笑声中快乐的分享着我们的开心与不开心；每天早上一同匆匆忙忙地赶往去上课；旁晚有时会相约跑步；有时会一同在厨房里，做晚餐；煲补汤。得空时，还会做些甜点，享受嘴里的甜直入心坎。
如今，朋友们各奔东西；大家忙着工作，赚钱，拼命地为自己的未来努力着。
有时，我会想，我也在努力着吗？还是，我仍停留在恍恍惚惚的那是？
行动上， 肢体上，我都在努力着；但心灵上呢？
何其奥妙。原来，我的心仍可停留在从前。
我记得好多好多的从前，好多好多的回忆。
回忆，在一个人寂寞的时候显得格外鲜明，格外令人无法忘怀。
记得我们的笑，我们的泪，我们一同分享的心事，一同面临过的所有。。。
我该向前。
向前面对我自己的未来，我自己迟来的一切。
曾经，我也拥有一股傲气，一股无法浇熄的勇气。
我正努力的燃烧起那微弱的勇气；
那努力迈向成功的自己。
记忆虽然模糊，但感觉永远真实。。。。
愿身边所有人，幸福快乐。
满天的星星，与我们一同迈向以后。。。。。。。。。
Thursday, September 23, 2010
我近期热爱～～咖啡
最近，爱上了下雨的午后。。
除了驱走炎热的热气。。。。也洗涤了沉闷的心情。
不知从何时开始，爱上了在午后喝一杯咖啡。。（尽管有时会喝到胃痛）
一杯咖啡的哲学何其多啊。
有人说，别喝太多咖啡。。。因为咖啡因。。。因为会导致骨骼疏松症。。
友人也说过, 一天可以喝不超过三杯的咖啡。
曾有那么的一段时间，实施一旦的下定决心要戒掉咖啡。
但，不到一个月就破功了。
咖啡啊，令人可爱可恨。
咖啡。。虽然爱，却不大会品尝。。
看来，是时候好好的学习，
如何品尝一杯好咖啡了。
一杯冒烟的热咖啡，配上绵绵细雨， 何等的享受啊～～
除了驱走炎热的热气。。。。也洗涤了沉闷的心情。
不知从何时开始，爱上了在午后喝一杯咖啡。。（尽管有时会喝到胃痛）
一杯咖啡的哲学何其多啊。
有人说，别喝太多咖啡。。。因为咖啡因。。。因为会导致骨骼疏松症。。
友人也说过, 一天可以喝不超过三杯的咖啡。
曾有那么的一段时间，实施一旦的下定决心要戒掉咖啡。
但，不到一个月就破功了。
咖啡啊，令人可爱可恨。
咖啡。。虽然爱，却不大会品尝。。
看来，是时候好好的学习，
如何品尝一杯好咖啡了。
一杯冒烟的热咖啡，配上绵绵细雨， 何等的享受啊～～
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
等一个人咖啡
终于看完了九把刀的小说。
等一个人咖啡。
书中的角色总是令人爱不释手。。。
人生，可曾真的那么完美？
咖啡一直都是我钟爱的饮料 （仅次于巧克力饮品）
那冲调一百杯咖啡之后才会出现的真命天子。。。
那早已注定的月老红线。。。
默默地等待，造就了不只一段天注定的恩缘；
也造就了其它与咖啡离不开关系的爱情。。。
一杯杯的肯亚；一杯杯的爱尔兰；一杯杯的巧克力碎片；
一次次摩托车上的飞驰；
一次次的五星级料理；
一次次的烟火邂逅；
让我无法自拔的沉溺在九把刀的虚幻模拟世界中。。。
看来我也得努力地等待。。。等待肯喝下我特调的。。。
菠萝蜜火龙果大战无糖白咖啡～～
等一个人咖啡。
书中的角色总是令人爱不释手。。。
人生，可曾真的那么完美？
咖啡一直都是我钟爱的饮料 （仅次于巧克力饮品）
那冲调一百杯咖啡之后才会出现的真命天子。。。
那早已注定的月老红线。。。
默默地等待，造就了不只一段天注定的恩缘；
也造就了其它与咖啡离不开关系的爱情。。。
一杯杯的肯亚；一杯杯的爱尔兰；一杯杯的巧克力碎片；
一次次摩托车上的飞驰；
一次次的五星级料理；
一次次的烟火邂逅；
让我无法自拔的沉溺在九把刀的虚幻模拟世界中。。。
看来我也得努力地等待。。。等待肯喝下我特调的。。。
菠萝蜜火龙果大战无糖白咖啡～～
Monday, June 28, 2010
when is time to say goodbye
have always predicted these days coming.. and yet... still tears jus keep come rolling down. It was a night that we would never forget i supposed..had our last night together...busy packing and removing all our stuff from the place that we have stayed for so long.. and officially said goodbye to each other.
It was a hot and humid night.. we were in fact tired but yet still not willing to waste any of the moments for our sleep... to keep awake, we ate my fav dark choc..:P (special thx to terrorist for the kind sponsor..)
ET was busy packing, with a heavy heart i know.
We weren;t talking much, me and SL were there, sitting aside, helping her to tape up all her stuffs. As if, we were sealing all our memories inside the yellow , brownish box. Memoirs of how precious all those that we have gone through.
We spent our birthdays together, from cakes to doughnuts to dumplings...
We spent our study time together, with late night supper, starbucks in middle of the time and waking up each other middle of the night to study...
we spent our holidays together, in each others hometown, doing stupid and crazy stuffs that colored up our life~
we shared our shoulders to each other whenever any of them need it.
we shared our tears, always found comforts and supports under the small hut..
Is such a pleasure to meet all of u gals.
we ended up the night with glancing through all those photos that you gals have taken in taiwan, sarawak and some other places, to capture down all those pretty faces inside my memory...days that we laughed and smiled together.
Clock ticked to 5am... and is almost time to leave. We left the place. 4 of us, had our breakfast inside the car, sharing this last moments of sharing foods together~~~
I drove. With high speed, afraid that we will miss the flight , yet feel gloomy and heavy hearted to say goodbye.
Yet, still have to say it.
It was a tight and warm hug.. that i will never forget.
keep the tears rolling inside my eye... trying hard not to let them roll down, saying that we will surely meet again (yes, we will of cox)
Missing those days that we shared our pillows and blanket...
missing those days that we cooked our dinner and making desserts together...
missing those moments where popo sharing her 'crush' with her tomato face..
missing those moments where we were attacked by terrorist...
yes~~
missing all good old days that we had...
but i believe that friendship never ends with separation, it makes it stronger and more precious with every meet up in the future~~
deep inside my heart...
i would say~~ i'll miss u all...so so much
Take care.
It was a hot and humid night.. we were in fact tired but yet still not willing to waste any of the moments for our sleep... to keep awake, we ate my fav dark choc..:P (special thx to terrorist for the kind sponsor..)
ET was busy packing, with a heavy heart i know.
We weren;t talking much, me and SL were there, sitting aside, helping her to tape up all her stuffs. As if, we were sealing all our memories inside the yellow , brownish box. Memoirs of how precious all those that we have gone through.
We spent our birthdays together, from cakes to doughnuts to dumplings...
We spent our study time together, with late night supper, starbucks in middle of the time and waking up each other middle of the night to study...
we spent our holidays together, in each others hometown, doing stupid and crazy stuffs that colored up our life~
we shared our shoulders to each other whenever any of them need it.
we shared our tears, always found comforts and supports under the small hut..
Is such a pleasure to meet all of u gals.
we ended up the night with glancing through all those photos that you gals have taken in taiwan, sarawak and some other places, to capture down all those pretty faces inside my memory...days that we laughed and smiled together.
Clock ticked to 5am... and is almost time to leave. We left the place. 4 of us, had our breakfast inside the car, sharing this last moments of sharing foods together~~~
I drove. With high speed, afraid that we will miss the flight , yet feel gloomy and heavy hearted to say goodbye.
Yet, still have to say it.
It was a tight and warm hug.. that i will never forget.
keep the tears rolling inside my eye... trying hard not to let them roll down, saying that we will surely meet again (yes, we will of cox)
Missing those days that we shared our pillows and blanket...
missing those days that we cooked our dinner and making desserts together...
missing those moments where popo sharing her 'crush' with her tomato face..
missing those moments where we were attacked by terrorist...
yes~~
missing all good old days that we had...
but i believe that friendship never ends with separation, it makes it stronger and more precious with every meet up in the future~~
deep inside my heart...
i would say~~ i'll miss u all...so so much
Take care.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Story Of Us B106....congratulations!!!!
It's been quite a while since i last updated my blog.. And yes, i think i need to update everyone here, whether this blog is being read o not.let;s update bits by bits, months by months.
March, getting on track.. getting myself into the circle of B107, thou it seems to be not so successful...with the unwiped pride on my ownself..but yet, i did all i can..
April, friends getting into final of the final~~ Housemates were so tense up, getting into the mood of final exam. I was in the tense up and all gear up condition, with my warm , blessed heart, i sent all of them into the exam hall ( hope u gals can feel it, with all the soup and tong sui to pamper ur stomach) lol...
May~~~ is the time for trips and fun... and yes.. i missed out all those moments~~ but yet i still appreciate all the souvenirs that i got!! Thank you people.. love u all so so much for never missing me out..
June ~~ and yet.. a month that most of us longing for. Especially B106. Been working so so hard to make the ball done. With lotsa heartache, quarrel, sleepless night, black face, raised up voice when we shouted to each other (and yes, due to some frustration and so much that need to be settled) but yet, we still have fun working together. I will never miss out those moments where needles and scissors are lying all around the floor and we have to hop through tonnes of paper jus to walk to another room... and also not to forget those helpers that helped us out volunteerily..and also food that we ate avtime after one whole day of hard work!!!
and FINALLY..on 3rd June , CONCORDE SHAH ALAM... a day where all our efforts and hardworks will be reveal..
special thanks to committee , Mcee and ah nian , and also amy and sing yee for being there so so early~~~ to help us to set up the place and also a final rehearsal.. thou there;s still some error for the opening part but yet~~~ all in all... is still a successful one I HOPE...
5th june 2010... a mark off for B106ers.. that they finally make it to the finishing line... I was there.. sending in my wishes once again and congratulations..It was a happy day for everyone... those smiles on their face...those shots that we took... those flowers and bears that we sent in~~~
CONGRATULATIONS B106....i will put all our memories in my heart...forever and ever~~~~
STORY OF US B106....a story that will never end~~~
March, getting on track.. getting myself into the circle of B107, thou it seems to be not so successful...with the unwiped pride on my ownself..but yet, i did all i can..
April, friends getting into final of the final~~ Housemates were so tense up, getting into the mood of final exam. I was in the tense up and all gear up condition, with my warm , blessed heart, i sent all of them into the exam hall ( hope u gals can feel it, with all the soup and tong sui to pamper ur stomach) lol...
May~~~ is the time for trips and fun... and yes.. i missed out all those moments~~ but yet i still appreciate all the souvenirs that i got!! Thank you people.. love u all so so much for never missing me out..
June ~~ and yet.. a month that most of us longing for. Especially B106. Been working so so hard to make the ball done. With lotsa heartache, quarrel, sleepless night, black face, raised up voice when we shouted to each other (and yes, due to some frustration and so much that need to be settled) but yet, we still have fun working together. I will never miss out those moments where needles and scissors are lying all around the floor and we have to hop through tonnes of paper jus to walk to another room... and also not to forget those helpers that helped us out volunteerily..and also food that we ate avtime after one whole day of hard work!!!
and FINALLY..on 3rd June , CONCORDE SHAH ALAM... a day where all our efforts and hardworks will be reveal..
special thanks to committee , Mcee and ah nian , and also amy and sing yee for being there so so early~~~ to help us to set up the place and also a final rehearsal.. thou there;s still some error for the opening part but yet~~~ all in all... is still a successful one I HOPE...
5th june 2010... a mark off for B106ers.. that they finally make it to the finishing line... I was there.. sending in my wishes once again and congratulations..It was a happy day for everyone... those smiles on their face...those shots that we took... those flowers and bears that we sent in~~~
CONGRATULATIONS B106....i will put all our memories in my heart...forever and ever~~~~
STORY OF US B106....a story that will never end~~~
Sunday, February 7, 2010
kicks
Why do I have to make my own life so miserable??
Why do I have to receive all the bombardment from u all…
Not paying the huge amount of money that u gals own me.. what the heck..
Yes go go ahead wait till the person u wan to come bac.. then get it done..
Yes if u think I never did a good job.. then I;m not!!!
Shit!!!
I’m the one being accused not cleaning up the hse.. wow!!
Out of my surprise… I thought someone else need to be blame!!
Never thought that when I get back the ball..everything becomes so much tougher..
Yes never get trusted …
Because the first bill that I have to collect to them is expensive!!
What.. so is my fault??
My fault for not being collecting it months by month?? I was not there!!!
And then… when I came bac..no one trust me..
Everything that I have counted out was all a lie to them.. great…
So what I done previously was all smashed back into rubbish bin!!!
Rubbish throwing issue.. I;m being accused not throwing rubbish.. wow..jus can’t believe how everything can be twisted.. why they dare to tell me bout this but not others??
Trying to be a good person?? Ended up..someone that being hatred the most.
Why do I have to receive all the bombardment from u all…
Not paying the huge amount of money that u gals own me.. what the heck..
Yes go go ahead wait till the person u wan to come bac.. then get it done..
Yes if u think I never did a good job.. then I;m not!!!
Shit!!!
I’m the one being accused not cleaning up the hse.. wow!!
Out of my surprise… I thought someone else need to be blame!!
Never thought that when I get back the ball..everything becomes so much tougher..
Yes never get trusted …
Because the first bill that I have to collect to them is expensive!!
What.. so is my fault??
My fault for not being collecting it months by month?? I was not there!!!
And then… when I came bac..no one trust me..
Everything that I have counted out was all a lie to them.. great…
So what I done previously was all smashed back into rubbish bin!!!
Rubbish throwing issue.. I;m being accused not throwing rubbish.. wow..jus can’t believe how everything can be twisted.. why they dare to tell me bout this but not others??
Trying to be a good person?? Ended up..someone that being hatred the most.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Incovarians
Incovarians, what does this title means??
more responsibilities, more inspiration, more excitement or more of others?
Incovarians have much more qualities , which is hard to be explained by words.
Incovar is a camp not only inspire people but teaching lay people like us to be a better person, giving out more helps to others.
Yesterday, in ajahn chah remembrance day, I can see a lot of familiar faces from incovar. Perhaps, they dun remember your name; perhaps they dunno which incovar u have been to, but they will always know that u are once an incovarian.
It makes me feel more at home. Sense of belonging to a place where everyone will have good will, good deed, good intention to you. And yes, this is a place call--incovar.
Sometimes i will think that, isin't it strange. There is always some sort of chemical reactions within incovarians. Spending only 4 days with each other in the camp, and can turned out to be very close friends that able to share voices of your heart to each other.
Under that atmosphere, with merits and love that spread out by others, even secret that never being revealed will be split out on that particular night, when we were blinded folded, making vows in heart that everything will kept within the four walls, we shared secrets with tears and hugs.
Life will not be so fun, if i never been to incovar.
I've gained much more than i have ever expected.
more responsibilities, more inspiration, more excitement or more of others?
Incovarians have much more qualities , which is hard to be explained by words.
Incovar is a camp not only inspire people but teaching lay people like us to be a better person, giving out more helps to others.
Yesterday, in ajahn chah remembrance day, I can see a lot of familiar faces from incovar. Perhaps, they dun remember your name; perhaps they dunno which incovar u have been to, but they will always know that u are once an incovarian.
It makes me feel more at home. Sense of belonging to a place where everyone will have good will, good deed, good intention to you. And yes, this is a place call--incovar.
Sometimes i will think that, isin't it strange. There is always some sort of chemical reactions within incovarians. Spending only 4 days with each other in the camp, and can turned out to be very close friends that able to share voices of your heart to each other.
Under that atmosphere, with merits and love that spread out by others, even secret that never being revealed will be split out on that particular night, when we were blinded folded, making vows in heart that everything will kept within the four walls, we shared secrets with tears and hugs.
Life will not be so fun, if i never been to incovar.
I've gained much more than i have ever expected.
Ajahn Chah remembrance Day
16.01.2010
Ajahn Remembrance Day
Din expect much when first visit to this event.
Reached there early in the morning 6 sth, started the day off with ushering.
I always love ushering..
Putting up the greatest smiles to others, greeting a very good morning to all the guest present, and in return, you will get lots of smiles and greetings as well.
The morning started of with Dhamma talks and it ends off with more Dhamma talks.
Is a day we attained not only knowledges but also more merits for us and for our family.
There's a lot of dhamma I learned, but not all that i can digest and understand.
There is one ajahn, mentioned something about ajahn chah.
He said ajahn chaH always do things based on examples, in the morning, sometimes, sangha on duty dun even have chance to ring the bells, because ajahn chan will rang it before anyone woke up; you thought u will be the first one in the shine hall, ajahn chah will always be there, no matter how early you were;
Ajahn chah always set himself as an example.
And this is what a leader should have. Fierce when u need to, be good to everyone, be a teacher to everyone, sharing out merits and love without asking anything in return.
Mind controls our body. We have our own choice to choose whether we wan to be happy or not. Why do we have to suffer with all those negative feelings?
Yes , it did inspire me.
However, inspire not enough to make me able to apply it in my daily life.
I still will get disturb by negative feelings.
The time to get rid of all these...will be a time to infinity.
Ajahn Remembrance Day
Din expect much when first visit to this event.
Reached there early in the morning 6 sth, started the day off with ushering.
I always love ushering..
Putting up the greatest smiles to others, greeting a very good morning to all the guest present, and in return, you will get lots of smiles and greetings as well.
The morning started of with Dhamma talks and it ends off with more Dhamma talks.
Is a day we attained not only knowledges but also more merits for us and for our family.
There's a lot of dhamma I learned, but not all that i can digest and understand.
There is one ajahn, mentioned something about ajahn chah.
He said ajahn chaH always do things based on examples, in the morning, sometimes, sangha on duty dun even have chance to ring the bells, because ajahn chan will rang it before anyone woke up; you thought u will be the first one in the shine hall, ajahn chah will always be there, no matter how early you were;
Ajahn chah always set himself as an example.
And this is what a leader should have. Fierce when u need to, be good to everyone, be a teacher to everyone, sharing out merits and love without asking anything in return.
Mind controls our body. We have our own choice to choose whether we wan to be happy or not. Why do we have to suffer with all those negative feelings?
Yes , it did inspire me.
However, inspire not enough to make me able to apply it in my daily life.
I still will get disturb by negative feelings.
The time to get rid of all these...will be a time to infinity.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Brand new Hui shan..
First blog in year 2010..and this reminds me is time to set up my new year resolutions and works toward it. Is time to forget the past..and move forward..searching for a better and also brighter future.
Yes..last year 2009..was a year with lots of ups and downs, loops and bounds..
yes..first half of the year was great, everything seems to be in control, i have funs, i enjoyed my studies, my life...but things changed..second half of the year, everything hacked me without noticing me earlier. Things seems to be pouring down, i've got out of control in my life. Tears rolling down, i wet my pillows for countless night, i stared upon the star and make my wishes..but none of it comes true..may be i wasn't hardworking enough, may be i wasn't sincere enough.
I always thought that i was a good girl, i never do harm to anyone.. i always wanted to serve best to others, despite my own good. But bad things still come to me..testing my determination and toughness, testing me on how to survive in rough wave in the ocean. I almost drown. I admit. It was so tough to get back up. To back on track.
This year, once again i wishes upon the star. Crossing my fingers, in front of my heart, i sincerely pray that my new year resolutions will come true.
This year, i hope that it will be a good year, not only for me but for all of us.
My new year resolution:
1. Get back in control in my studies
2. Enjoy my uni life
3. Expand my social life
4. Sincere smile
5. Do more good to others
6. Keep fit..
Yes..
2010, a brand new year, may all the dark clouds left me.. left me far far away please..
i need more sunshine..
I need a good good year..
Happy new year..
Yes..last year 2009..was a year with lots of ups and downs, loops and bounds..
yes..first half of the year was great, everything seems to be in control, i have funs, i enjoyed my studies, my life...but things changed..second half of the year, everything hacked me without noticing me earlier. Things seems to be pouring down, i've got out of control in my life. Tears rolling down, i wet my pillows for countless night, i stared upon the star and make my wishes..but none of it comes true..may be i wasn't hardworking enough, may be i wasn't sincere enough.
I always thought that i was a good girl, i never do harm to anyone.. i always wanted to serve best to others, despite my own good. But bad things still come to me..testing my determination and toughness, testing me on how to survive in rough wave in the ocean. I almost drown. I admit. It was so tough to get back up. To back on track.
This year, once again i wishes upon the star. Crossing my fingers, in front of my heart, i sincerely pray that my new year resolutions will come true.
This year, i hope that it will be a good year, not only for me but for all of us.
My new year resolution:
1. Get back in control in my studies
2. Enjoy my uni life
3. Expand my social life
4. Sincere smile
5. Do more good to others
6. Keep fit..
Yes..
2010, a brand new year, may all the dark clouds left me.. left me far far away please..
i need more sunshine..
I need a good good year..
Happy new year..
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